“Reading about nature is fine, but if a person walks in the woods and listens carefully, he can learn more than what is in books, for they speak with the voice of God.”

And so a walk onto the ground with bare feet is so healthy for your body.  That is the type of bare feet with zero shoes not the slippers with claws type.

I don't go into the woods or the bush as we call it here in Australia alone.  It is a dangerous place the Australian bush and a friend along for the walk is advisable.  I stick to the more open paths. For example, the walk out to the beach here in front of our house on the hill or into the beach down the road further called the Sand Mines ...  It is named this because it is the drive into an area that was originally used for sand mining and now they don't do this anymore,  and thank goodness for that as well.

I like to walk out via the mangroves and see the huge male kangaroo protecting his family.   This big male roo has been here a long long time and he has seen a lot of change  here at Galayjal  Miirrlarl.

I learn everything there is from imitating nature.  We are meant to imitate these things and feel this in our spirit.  "Imitate nature and take one step at a time" - Mary Peters.  I get up with the birds and I go to sleep with them as well.  I get as much daylight into my eyes as humanly possible.

I know it helps my sadness because since I have been doing this I have changed.  I don't cry anymore like I used to all of  the time.  I guess I have finally come out of it at last.  The sadness of losing two of my children to the world and their  turning against me because I am different was a hard road to tramp.  I tramped it, and I jumped on it and I threw things at that road.

No longer do I feel this way.  The suns rays and my expectant heart worked together to perform a miracle ....  I have not cried now for approximately 7 weeks.   Well I  have shed a tear or two, but I have not cried because of this stuff.  I went with and expectant heart to see Montana again and like wow that happened immediately and I asked could I photograph birds and now the birds sit there nicely while I take their pictures.  I asked to go to Uluru and now I'm going with Uncle Tom and Suzie Kelly.

I know that I know that  the sun has a lot to do with all of this occurring  as it's a lot of co-incidences at once!  I needed a tripod to do any early photography with any level of success and so I asked what I should do and I came home that day and posted and add for a tripod and within three minutes a lady responded.   I was blessed with one for $20.00.  This tripod is brand new and it is perfect and it was only twenty dollars.  That was the figure I saw in my minds eye that I could pay ... this is what they charged. Amazing!

Now that this has been shown to me to be a powerful energy I most assuredly  am to work on myself more.  I have see that the expectant heart in front of the sun is a good thing.  The energy receptors in my body are fully charged most of the time.  Just that little extra charge and Whamo! look what happens.  I say thanks to God for this secret knowledge.  Just like most things though God gets laughed at a lot and not taken seriously.

I know people already think that I am full loopy for doing all of this sun-gazing. But  it is something that I must do now as I have been to the very depths of darkness with these problems of mine over the last two and a half years.    Now,  I finally see changes.   So now I am going for it full speed ahead now.  I need to mend these stupid relationships with my other two children.  They must see that their mother was right soon and that they other people were very wrong.  I must have patience. 
I will go before the sun today and ask for patience to be restored into my sphere of engagement with people places and things.  I am short on patience most of the time.  Frustration being one of the key things that tip me over the edge at times.  No more  now as nothing tips me these days.   Thank you Yuludarla!

Our Ancestors live on in me as yours live on in you. Jan Hawkins

“There is an order to things and I help to keep that order. I might be anyone of you really - I could be the person sitting beside you or the person you spend your life with. I could be you, only you would never know it because that is the order of things.

I am the one who whispers in your ear... We are all part of the past and a part of the future... Our Ancestors live on in me as yours live on in you... this... is my story and my world, and I would like to tell you about it so that we can all get on in this place together.”

Dawn in the colours of the YULUDARLA ( dreaming)

If that got you intrigued there is plenty more of where that come from in the entire book as that my friends is what you call excerpt.  It was just a tiny bit to wet your whistle!
You can purchase this book online through Amazon Books  and its by Jan Hawkins. 

http://www.ebay.com.au/itm/130660142875?ssPageName=STRK%3AMESELX%3AIT&_trksid=p3984.m1558.l2649

To my children and interested others: I too am the piece of a piece of the ancients. A piece of me is in all of you!  A piece of me will be in all of your children.  There is something strange and unyieldingly fair about this reality.  It doesn't matter how much you dislike me or who I am I will be in your children no matter what unless you decide to adopt.

I am the child of the child  of the child of the person who was known as a legendary horsewoman in her time and she rode on until she was in her late 70's.  Horses were her friends.  Christina Flint was a woman to be held up like this and she is also your ancestor because a part of her is contained in me and all of that genetic memory is passed on to us all.

It is amazing to think of the possibilities of this sort of thinking indeed.  Perhaps when you sing or when you ride or race or if your tough in your fight to survive this life,  it doesn't occurr to your that your fighting a fight that may well have been fought before and you already have the answers you need inside of you.  They are contained in the cells of your make up.  I don't mean the pretty colored stuff girls wear!  The genetic memory in our family is very very strong.  I am aware of this and I get messages regularly from them in my spirit.

embrace this part inside of yourself as it is there for a reason.  It is there to protect you and help keep you and it is the part that God intended you to keep!  He doesn't want you to live in the past but merely to embrace that part of your past that has brought about your creation of being. With out a past  you would not have come.  There would be no YOU!  YOU would not exist as you are now.  YOU would be someone else not you.  That is a lot to think about isn't it.


Image by Mezza - Yuludarla - Dreaming colours

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Where ignorance is our master, there is no possibility of real peace.

Dalai Lama 

Reflections

It became apparent today as I stood in the light. A lot of the people around me do not understand me.  They prefer their ignorance to hold hands with their selfish pride because a pride of this demeanour is only for oneself and not for the good of all around.

I have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of as I have said many times.  I did not do the things that are said about me.  What else can I say and if I am not believed it is not my issue but the person who is doing the believing.  I don't have an issue with the truth  at all.  But I will not succumb to be told I am lying when I say to them that I am not.

So while ever these people keep themselves ignorant to the truth then they will not have any true and genuine peace of mind because life does things.  It makes things play on our mind.  There must be some doubt in their minds now that they may just have been very wrong about me and about Brice.  There were others who were self serving in blackening our names and thought nothing about using the kids to make it all happen. 

I have to keep the faith and not be a part of this and keep seeing the day that this will be all sorted out.  I will strive towards this.  I surely cannot have done anything so bad that I should be treated like this.  I have done a lot of things in response to how my situation was in the past surely I cannot be held accountable for normal reactions to abnormal situations.

Image by Mezza - Window on the hill reflecting the early morning in Urunga 2012

RED SKY for a short time at dawn.

I promised I would not go at dawn without the tripod and see I was totally rewarded because I can't take this image without one as its physically impossible for me to hold it still that long.

So the day started off beautiful and Montana is arriving this afternoon to stay the evening so I must not waste time today looking at pretty images making my eyes tired.

Image by Mezza - Dawn on the two rivers running in Urunga NSW

No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever.

quote by Francois Mauriac

Fishing the river at Dawn

Everyone we meet or come across in our lives are the ones who help shape us as individuals during our journey of life.  If mud is thrown a little bit always sticks they say.  So even bad friendship leaves its mark on us and sometimes this is for a lifetime.

Men fishing with each other at Dawn in Urunga

 We are stereotyped into being a particular sort of person and it is difficult to break out of that.  In my opinion the difficulty lies with others though and not ourselves as its the others who want to keep us in the neat box they have placed us.  When we break out of the box things can be messy.  They can also be very exciting and liberating to the spirit.

For today, do something different and break out of the mould that others have you placed in and show them there are many sides to being a human being and that settling for just one is in fact boring.

Image by Mezza - Dawn fishing at Urunga March 2012

Deep unspeakable suffering may well be called a baptism, a regeneration, the initiation into a new state. - George Eliot

Yaanagay,  yagay!    ( Gumbaynggirr)...... Here you are, Here it is!

 The exquisite colours of dawn..

These beautiful colours come at a price because I can assure you that the Midgees are absolutely lethal at this time of the morning.  They do not respond to the Aerogard and now I wear as much clothing as possible and sometimes that means its hot.  I think better to be a little hot and capture these images, than to be bitten and be jumping around like a real fool.

I let nature be the singer and I just listen to the song, biding my time in the dawn's early light.  What a massive sight this morning was.

Image by Mezza - Dawns palette of colour at Urunga 1st of Autumn and her colours.

Faith is the bird that sings when the dawn is still dark. Rabindranath Tagore

The Pelicans...

The dawn today from the hill was blood red but really I should have taken the tripod and captured it as it was still fairly dark and the dawning light was a brilliant crimson blood red.

The sight was mind blowing but I muffed and all of those shots of the sky like that were a tad blurry so I saved you the pain of seeing this as it is a great pain for me to bugger it up like that. 

No more will I do this and I will be ever vigilante against this in the future.   Anyway to capture these two pelicans flying silently above me was a bonus as I stood on the board-walk at dawn.  I could see them coming in the dim light towards me so I focused on them and stood motionless hoping they would not deviate their flight path.  They flew right above me and I was so tempted to yell out hello.  I didn't though and let them pass unabated.

On the pelican:

The Pelican is one of the heaviest birds capable of flight. It is strangely proportioned with very short legs for the size of its body. Adults can weigh as much as 10 to 17 pounds (4.5-7.7 kg). Because of their large bodies and short legs, these birds are far better swimmers than walkers. They have a wing span of 9 feet (2.8 m).
 

Image By Mezza - Pelicans over Urunga

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Gilayjal Miirlarl - High tide SACRED PLACE...

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Gilayjal  Miirlarl at dawn low tide.

Every day I feel blessed living here in this place where we are. The High Tide Sacred Place ...It is so full of the dreaming here.  Uncle Toms ancestors were amazing people.  Uncle Tom is turning 88 in April and he is so old and he knows the stories.  I am so glad of the circumstance no matter how painful this birthing is of what ever is being birthed inside of me.  It is a very strong action occurring in my spirit.  It is exciting.

What is sad about today is that Julia Gillard our PM has cancelled Julian Assange's Australian passport.  I am incredibly disillusioned by all of the circumstances around this given that Julian put his neck on the line for all of us on the planet and then how can we let him languish alone somewhere being bullied by governments.. I just feel very saddened by this.

How can they preach LOVE and fight each other holding guns.. we are all equal yet they push synthetic separation..    
Every dawn is a new day to make a change ...........BLISS N ESO..  Running on Air

 .......................and the moon is going into Gemini today so its my time to ignite..



Image by Mezza - Dawn about to happen on the Last DAY OF SUMMER  29th February 2012 Urunga

“I think we're seeing in working mothers a change from "Thank God it's Friday" to "Thank God it's Monday." If any working mother has not experienced that feeling, her children are not adolescent.” Ann Diehl

Garbage Morning

A STICK STUCK

 It was something and I wanted to know what the hell it was so I got all the way out there to look!  It was a stick.  A curly stick that someone had just stuck into the middle of the old rotting pier post. If I was tall enough I would have taken the curly stick out of the thing because it isn't supposed to be there.

What a lovely day today is already.  No tears and lots of clear thinking.  Today Montana comes again to stay with me.  Yay it is Monday at last. 

 I feel that she gets a lot of flack for hanging out at all with me.  I don't want to be Montana's friend .... so much as I want to be her mother and being a mother to her is important to me.  The other  two children  are jealous!   I would say this as this is how it was. 

I continue to say that Montana  restored my faith in humanity.  Which she did entirely .  Jesse was so active as a child and full on.  Matilda was hard core and throwing tantrums at every turn and then came Montana who wanted to read and sing and learn and love. 

It was a dream come true.  Guess the others prefer Johns company.  Montana always preferred my company.  She loved me so much.  Once,  once she loved me like no one else had ever loved me,  it was the sweetest thing I have ever known.  Sweeter than any sugar known to man.  Her love was the purest love there was and I could feel it.  I loved her love and we loved each other so much!  She would play word games with me and I called her " Little Bum"  and I have called her "Lamb Tart" and I have called her just "Tart" for short.  We had to stop that one as it was coming out in public places and people were looking quite strange at a mother who called her daughter 'Tart. 

These days its harder as now her sister won't allow her to even have a radio show with me with out interrupting her and asking her to leave!  She promised me and her listeners on air that she would stay the entire 2 hours next week.  She realizes what they are doing and they will be sad in the end because it is wrong!

Today and just for today I will be happy and I will enjoy this time we have together as time will not last forever and I know this now!  I want to enjoy Montana while I still have some time!

Image by Mezza - Stick in the Pier at Urunga NSW 2012

You don't stop laughing because you grow old, you grow old because you stopped laughing.

So above all, continue to do the things that you enjoy and love as you get older and older as that is the thing that keeps you alive.  Food has a little to do with it but really one must be happy and have a desire to live.  If one loses the desire to laugh and then to live then life is snuffed out and the universe cannot help but reply and death can ensue!

I like to do things that make me feel alive and kicking like standing in the freezing waters at dawn taking photographs.  I probably would have loved to have studied this sort of art at college. 

I do wish I had been born to people who enjoyed education and learning.  To be born and have to live with people who would not allow you to do your homework was difficult to keep up the charade of perfectness that I wanted to convey as a child was terribly important to me because I was already living such an imperfect life compared to others.  The pressure was horrendous

I could have studied in my adult years but I chose a life partner who always made fun of the fact that I am very very clever.  He prefers to tell people the exact opposite these days and they prefer to believe him.  I am in fact still studying and I learn amazing stuff daily and I love to teach Montana.

Images and Design by Mezza- Urunga NSW

Go outside because miracles are waiting everywhere for you.

One of the Caves 

 

 

 

 

 

Some Rocks just out from the caves

Now I have seen the Valla Beach Caves, they were fascinating.  I have heard that these places are considered to be a mans space within Aboriginal or indigenous law or lore, whichever makes you feel comfortable.  I respected this, and I didn't enter into the caves, I stood out front and took pics of them but I didn't go inside. 

While I was there I got a tremendous buzzing in my head and when I came home I had the worst headache I have ever had besides having meningitis many years ago.  I did wonder if the two events were connected.  I do feel better now though so that is a good thing.  It was painful.

After I left the beach caves I traveled along the highway to Burkes Lane where I took a left turn in towards my favorite hill I like to photograph lately and I drove towards Pickett Hill.  A magnificent sight it is too.  It is also a mans space and even uninitiated men should not walk there.  It has strong indigenous spiritual meaning.

Image by Mezza - Valla Beach  NSW

Sometimes you gotta live like and Indian but at other times you have to fight like a palestinian!

These are very true words... and words of the Luminaries.

Those words reminded me of a biblical story when Jesus was full of righteous anger and he overturned the money changers tables in the temples at Jerusalem.  Apparently, that was cool.

Well these days we are to be meek and mild like sheep but somehow we have to be tough and clever and sneaky to survive this strange world we live in.  Yesterday I heard of a man hurting a woman who was shopping and putting her groceries into her car and the man used a knife and stole her groceries!

I don't know what I would do now given the laws here in this country and if I was faced  with this situation!  The police and courts of Australia are locking up people who defend themselves against this kind of unsolicited violence and the true attackers are getting away with it.  If someone attacked me like this and I could get the knife off them, then I would definatley  use it on them if I could.  However it is deemed that you are then attacking and soyour jailed for this instead of your attacker! HUH can someone tell me what is wrong here! This cannot go on in our country.  How can we defend ourselves? 

This traumatizes me no end because I do not feel safe now that I know I cannot physically protect myself legally!  I have to let them stab me or I may go to jail if someone is hurt during my protecting myself.

The world is an awfully mixed up and severely confused place within which  we live  today.  Occupy movements have sprung up all over the planet.  GOOD ... we need to stand together against all of the government greed and ridiculousness of society  and the attitudes of the leaders of the world in general.  Who is behind this?    Who is pushing for life to be this way?  Not me.  I cannot understand what is happening anymore!  I know I am suffereing and so are my children and the families who come along now are going to be serious HAVES and HAVE NOTS!

Image by Mezza - Tee-Shirt I photographed in 2011

Keep faith in the beautiful things; in the sun when it is hidden, in the spring when it is gone. Roy R Gibson.

In our case here in Australia we will mourn the passing of summer into autumn... but inherently it is the same feeling for me.

The Two Rivers in the URUNGA dawn.

I heard clap sticks in my head and I heard them getting louder and louder and that we only had to think this and that it would happen.  It would drive those fellah's mad that needed to be driven that way.  That is original majick because I could hear the ancient sounds.

Image by Mezza - Urunga at Dawn February 2012

The quality of a friendship is based on many different values that are considered to be positive.

These values include sympathy and empathy; trust in one another, mutual understanding and compassion, and honesty.

Friends should be able to go to each other for emotional support, provide a give and take relationship on both ends, and be able to express their feelings and mistakes without judgment.

No Light

There's no way out of this, no light, no hope.
Put out the fire that burned so bright, no truth, no home.
My footprints in the sand are cleared with morning's tide.
For nothing will remain, all will subside.

But there must be something more.....

The darkest clouds will fall, all meaning laid to waste
They tell me there's no hope, no light to guide the way.
If these shells of skin and bone are all we have,
Then I refuse to stand and watch the fire die inside. 

 A Hope for Home (commonly abbreviated to AHFH) is a band based in Portland, Oregon that formed in 2006.  Kyle one of the founding members died of cancer in 2006 just after the band formed.

This is an example of love for a friend who has passed but who will never be forgotten.  A spokes person for the band said:

Our message is simple, Believe in Hope. No matter what you are going through in your life, there is always hope. Kyle battled cancer for 6 years of his life, and lived far longer than he was ever expected. He never stopped fighting, and didn't give into hopelessness. He lived a full life through it all, and used the pain and hardships that he was going through for a much higher purpose. Hopelessness can easily take over when we are in overwhelming circumstances and it takes real strength to overcome it. Kyle found hope through his faith in God and through the love from the people in his life. When it comes down to it, those are the things that can keep you going, no matter what life throws your way. So the best way you can support our message, is be somebody's hope, help them through whatever they are going through, just like Kyle did. Thank you. Much love & God bless, The Kyle Cooke Foundation.

 Image by Brice Brennan - Mary-Ellen and Cathy Correia at Perry's Hill returning from a road trip!

Pickett Hill and Graft n Eruption

That was funny because lately all I have been thinking about is volcanoes near here. My young friend was wanting a name for an event and Graft N Eruption came straight to mind as a small play on words from Graft and corruption pun.   Anyway I hope that is a success for those fellahs up that way! It is all about the music and we must remember that and its so good to see that Malachi MC is following this principal in his business he loves.

Lately  I was fascinated with Pickett Hill.  I know now that it is a sacred place and young men are told to stay away! So I don't think that I will be going to close! If men are to stay away then why were the elder woman not respected at the meeting by national parks etc.  Very sad.

This hill still fascinates me though.  I am going to see a really big hill in May ... I am going to Uluru.  I live on a hill and this blog is called On the Hill.  I like hills.  I like high points.  Not sure if it is because I have experienced so many floods and this is the end result.

 

 For tomorrow the sun comes and goes like this on Fri Feb 17  

First Light 6:04am

Sunrise  6:28am

Sunset   7:34pm 

Last Light 7:59pm

Image by Mezza - Pickett Hill taken from Hungry Head.

Earth is my Garden .... and I groove in it!

Today's post is all about the image and what it means and what it is.  First off this image was photographed right here on the hill.  It is the leaves and moss on a wet part of the bitumen road. The rest of this image is my creative aspect.

The words are closely related to the fact that I do feel that this is my garden and I did grow in it. However, Bliss N Eso already sort of said that.  I thought for a second and I realized that at my age I have pretty well stopped growing.  I have been small for a long time now and that what I do here on this earth is groove.  I groove in the Garden.

I love the representation of Earth being intrinsically the same as the rest of the universe only we are dealing in color here and out there it does appear rather dark at times.  We are but a hairs breath from that reality of the infinite universe every second of every day.

Anyway that's how we feel at the On the hill today.  Like this world needs to take a long look at who are their advisers then if they plead such innocence because those advisers are not good with their advise. 

They are ruining our planet faster than we have any hope of fixing now.  The Amazon is still being chopped down and mutilated like a serious victim of this world full of madness surrounding this stuff.  The world is in addiction.  If it is addict behavior to want things immediately, then therefore the world demanding everything instantaneously as it does is then in serious addiction. 

Words by Mezza -  Earth is my garden and ...I groove in it!

Image by Mezza - The road near the gutter out front / PLANET EARTH in the UNIVERSE

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“Though outwardly a gloomy shroud, The inner half of every cloud Is bright and shining: I therefore turn my clouds about And always wear them inside out To show the lining.”

Ellen Thorneycroft Fowler

The day began bathed in brilliant sunshine...

(Mrs. A.L. Felkin) Quotes Source: Wisdom of Folly.

Today on the hill the weather is really perplexing. Not sure if it will be so hot or pour rain. Storms all around us each day.

I suspect it is a fine day if your in love. Valentines Day is good for that. I have this beautiful heart that was given to me at the beach. So I guess every day is valentines day for me. We look for these beautiful things in nature. When we find them I carry on as though I have found a diamond or something equally precious.

When things go wrong. Look for the opportunity in that moment to change something to fix it up again. If it is in your power to do so then do so. All crisis brings change. Change is not to be feared but to be welcomed as the changeable seasons and the changeable days.

We cannot have sunny days everyday and therefore the lesson in nature for us is that sometimes things are not so bright. Wait patiently as this will pass just like the clouds do. The sun will come out on your situation once more.

Know when you have a good thing. Know that your freedom of choice is a possession that is priceless.

Image by Mezza - Bricee's Heart rock at the Hungry head Beach NSW

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As social beings we live with our eyes upon our reflection, but have no assurance of the tranquillity of the waters in which we see it. ...Charles Horton Cooley

We of our own Never Never...

 What a beautiful sight this was to see the comforting waters of the Never Never Creek again where we all used to have so much fun at different times.  This part of the creek is particularly deep and absolutely fresh and cold.  The water commencing its journey towards the Bellinger River only a few miles away at the source.  I did have the nicest times with my children at the river playing for hours in the water amongst the rocks and sitting reading under the shady trees.

This was a beautiful place to have children grow up.  So different to city life with all its woes and the business of its existence as it is.  The Never Never is beautiful piece of Australia and a very special place and a healing place for woman.

It healed me and I also let it hurt me.  I guess its an energy transfer.  I gained some and I lost some there.  So did Jesse.  He lost his first tooth when he was 6 years old in the Never Never Creek swimming.  We searched and searched amongst the rocks under the water to no avail.  We  had to send a letter to the forest faeries to tell the tooth faeries what had transpired.  They co-operated and there was money under the pillow the next day.  Faeries do not much around.

Image by Mezza - Never Never Creek Gleniffer NSW

Dawn today over the footbridge in Urunga

The golden light of this Saturday morning was glorious but I could see some rain building and a storm on the front.  I stood and took some images and gazed longingly into the pureness of the dawning suns healing light. 

Last week I met someone who told me that it took 9 minutes for your entire blood supply to pass by your eyes and this healing light.  This light is capable of bleaching things in its brilliance.  When you look into the sun you are perhaps bleaching your blood of the impurities within that cannot be dissipated any other way than by the suns rays into your eyes at either dawn or sunset at an hour either side of this.  Other times the suns radiation is too strong and will cause you damage.  This is where common sense kicks in and you make the choice not to do it then.

One hour after this image was shot the sky opened up and bucketed down once more.  Lightening and thunder all around and a shaking dog once more.

Image by Mezza - Dawn at Urunga

Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months - Oscar Wilde

I love how Example says it in his lyrics,  "Gotta draw a line.  I cant sit on the fence all day.  They'll fight if we don't press play.  Pretty sure.  Cause we are starving, we are thirsty for more of the good stuff and hungry for more of the bad stuff". 




This is the dichotomy of life.  I think Pablo Picasso sums it up beautifully.   "Never permit a dichotomy to rule your life, a dichotomy in which you hate what you do so you can have pleasure in your spare time. Look for a situation in which your work will give you as much happiness as your spare time."   Pablo Picasso
 

Read more: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/dichotomy.html#ixzz1luzq1T00

Image by Mezza - Melonpopzdropz designs.

DAWN ROLLS AROUND AGAIN...

The Dawn and New Dawn were magazines published between 1952-1975 



The aim of providing interesting information and an exchange of news and views

This is not the best photo but I was having a hard time with the tripod in the dark last night. I will be better equipped tonight after a few renovations to the tripod today

The Dawn and New Dawn were magazines published between 1952-1975 by the New South Wales Aborigines Welfare Board, with the aim of providing interesting information and an exchange of news and views. The Dawn and New Dawn were also a way for people to keep in contact. Today the magazines are a valuable source of family history information as they include details of births, deaths, marriages and baptisms, as well as hundreds of photographs
The Dawn and New Dawn contain articles about the conditions and activities on reserves, stations, homes and schools throughout New South Wales. During their time of publication the magazines were also used to report the work of the Aboriginal Welfare Board.

Accessing the Dawn / New Dawn magazines

To view and search the Dawn and New Dawn, see the AIATSIS Library's Dawn online exhibition
Issues of Dawn magazine are indexed in the Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander Biographical Index, part of MURA®, the AIATSIS catalogue at http://mura.aiatsis.gov.au/  and the State Library of NSW Australian Indigenous index also known as INFOKOORI at www.sl.nsw.gov.au/infokoori/ .
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This is not the best photo but I was having a hard time with the tripod in the dark last night. I will be better equipped tonight after a few renovations to the tripod today

Image by Mezza - Full Moon at dawn in the western sky over Urunga February 2012

At times : It never rains but it pours.... ( proverb)

 Not much sun today in old Urunga town... I managed to get a time bit of sunshine on the dawn horizon.

This morning down the coast a short way flash flooding occurred in Port Macquarie as a storm cell dumped inches of rain on the area.

I have just returned from being up the coast with the girls having fun and seeing sights for fun and photographing all of them.  Cathy and Ana and Jew and I had so many laughs it was surely good for our souls.  It was hilarious trying to understand each other again.   Thai isn't easy and spanish is fun.  I come home speaking like a mix of all of these.  

The trip was marred with some sadness as we recalled again our many great stories of our dear departed friend Texsy who was tragically run over while walking home late last year in 2011.   We shed tears and laughed for her.  We said on more than one occasion that we felt she was there with us. 

I love Jew, I love the tenacity that this woman has.  I love Ana, she is someone to look up to as she is wise and beautiful in her spirit.  Cathy and I took the trip for fun, we couldn't help but think how much it was like old times when we used to trip around NSW with  my job with Koala Publishing.

The entire trip was filled with the effects of the butterfly once more.

Image by Mezza - Rain on the dawn horizon Feb 2012

You can't sweep other people off their feet, if you can't be swept off your own. - Clarence Day

Montana with her Red Velvet cakes

On the hill today I was blessed to have Montana home to stay for 2 nights and she said that she will come and stay more often.  I need to see her at this time in her life and to give her the female wisdom that she needs in life.  The stuff of being a mum. 

I love my  daughter so much and I really have been so harassed by bad and unspeakable deeds of others.   I am the one in this relationship though that has to learn wisdom.  I need to Pray. 

O God and Heavenly Father,

Grant to us the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed, and wisdom to know the one from the other.  

Sometimes it would be good if I just said very little.  I need to just let time take the course that it has chosen.  I am grateful of my daughters company just for today.  Today I had a ball cooking Red Velvet patty cakes with her, I got to let her show me just how clever she really is.  She is a good girl.  Some of the stuff that is happening to her isn't fair to her or to me or to our relationship.

So for today we will accept what we can.  I can say thank you.  No one can take that away from me.
 
Wisdom is the reward you get for a lifetime of listening when you'd have preferred to talk.
Doug Larson

Read more: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_wisdom6.html#ixzz1lOAV1lnE

Image by Mezza - Montana's Red Velvet Cup cakes Feb 2012

Look at our goals, If we never stood in the cold we wouldn’t evolve, Used to put my crooked foot in what I couldn’t resolve, But took control now,

Pressure.... Hilltop Hoods  ( I love It 2011)

Hard work is good for my soul,

And I love it, growing through life and stress,
Knowing the fight is just half of self-imposing our righteousness,

Contract owners and licenses, showbiz in lights we’re just searching for that moment of pricelessness...

Today I felt moved to quote these lyrics with this beautiful image I saw and photographed this morning.  The Hilltop Hoods do say great things in their rhymes.  I feel very comfortable hearing them.  It is a form of reassurance I think.  It's a knowing that others know the same stuff as I do.  I like that.
Image by Mezza - Dawn on the 3rd Day

Like water, be gentle and strong. Be gentle enough to follow the natural paths of the earth, and strong enough to rise up and reshape the world. — Brenda Peterson

Beautiful Drops.

 I guess its a bit like that with me.  I am constantly checking the depth of trouble I am in.  What is new?  I am very outspoken at times and should realize that I have a gift to be able to do this now uninhibited by anyone.  Not a boss or a colleague or even my children. 

My partner supports most things I do as long as he is fully briefed on the issue.  I guess what I need to do for myself is get my teeth into something, but not before I go on my trip to Uluru.  I am still hoping that I can go with Sue and Uncle Tom, they did promise.  I would feel honoured.

The flood waters once again are residing and I am fairly sure I will be able to broadcast my radio show tomorrow.


Image by Mezza - Beautiful water drops on Coronation Street Bellingen

At some point in life all beings wonder and ponder the primal questions of life, the universe and everything.

 Every child knows they’re on a magical mystery tour, exploring and creating a gloriously intricate realm of intriguing riddles and sumptuous sensuality. Every freshly incarnate soul knows answers to eternal conundrums and recognizes that truth must be really simple, clear and meaningful – unlike the plethora of corporate, ‘religious’ and ‘spiritual’ lies they’re fed to keep them in place in the usual fowl-brained pecking order.. . . (exerpt from New Illuminati)

The Birds I wished would come, and they did!

I thought this was good to post about on the first of the new month of February 2012.  Its is always awesome when it is a new month.  Don't know why, but it just is! 
It is this quest for knowledge discussed above that I am on.  I have been on it for a good while now.  I think I first thought about the world as such really big when I realized that death happens to babies.  I was five years old when the baby across the street from me died of S.I.D.S.  ( Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)

We took their other child for the day and his name was Scotty Wilkinson.  I don't know what ever happened to him.  He was the motorbike policeman's son and he was my friend.  He was very sad that day and I wanted to try to help him feel better.  I remember collecting wild flowers with him  for the baby who died.  We were so young to come to terms with such big conundrums as death and life at ages 3 and 5.

So long ago now and that all happened in Stanthorpe Queensland where I grew up for the first 12 years of my life.

Website for more information regarding the universe etc and answers to those nagging questions you have had forever and want answers to and closure on .. If so, then check this site out for some helpful information  http://nexusilluminati.blogspot.com.au/

Image by Mezza - Footbridge at dawn Urunga  taken 31/01/2012

Come what may, some memories fade..........but some stay as vivid as the moment they were made

Dreams of the days where he stood like a mountain
It's been a while since then ,but who's counting

He lies awake, lies in wait, 

For the light of the morning to bless him, and shine again

Excerpt from "Cigarettes" - Illy

I simply thought in front of the creator that I wanted to photograph birds in front of the dawning sun, within seconds my wish was granted.  It happened that quick.  Now to apply the same principals to all things in my life.

I feel very very blessed when I see the light come into the sky each morning.  Today the sun is expected to rise around 6:15am and I am always always keen to see this.  The photographic opportunities are so expansive at dawn.  The light is changing so fast at times its hard to keep up with it. 

I find myself running to capture stuff photographically.  I get extremely excited by the prospect of the image I am going to take.  Its not a bad thing.  It gives me a level of excitement each day at day break that cannot be matched by human kind.  It is mostly a feeling of communion that I feel.  Like I am standing alone with God. 

Standing alone with God is a pretty awesome feeling believe me.  I welcome this so much.  It is a feeling that there is huge understanding and the universe is unfolding as it should.  I need to do this often and commune with the Creator of the universe and I prefer to refer to this as God. 

Our ideas on God may differ, but I love God, The Dreaming talks about when the earth was created and the stories of the seed power are phenomenal.  This "seed" power is very evident in this area.  You can almost see the hand of creation over this place.

Image by Mezza - Birds at Dawn in Urunga

Next to temperance, a quiet conscience, a cheerful mind, and active habits, I place early rising as a means of health and happiness. - Flint

Looking out over the back garden at dawn!

 Morning is the best of all times in the garden.  The sun is not yet hot.  Sweet vapors rise from the earth.  Night dew clings to the soil and makes plants glisten.  Birds call to one another.  Bees are already at work.        William Longgood

http://www.gardendigest.com/morning.htm

Always I love to get up early and work in the garden before the heat comes about.  Working and seeing the sun rise is a gift that not all see or even appreciate.  Some are literally horrified at the thought that they should rise and see the dawning of the day.

I for one would be lost if I did not arise from my sleep each day to gaze upon the day and all of its beauty and the prospect of what the day will bring.  Each day is a great day here on the hill.  Today I heard from my friends Dean and Leanne at the Gold Coast.  She isn't working at the moment and so it is great to hear all of her family and  her grandchildren are all well.

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Image by Mezza - The Backyard at Morgo Street Urunga at dawn

And on this day many lessons were learned and bridges were burned to the ground

Metaphorically speaking because not much is actually burning around here.  At the moment  this Australia Day finds the place totally inundated and experiencing some fairly serious flooding.

It has been raining for over a week now and the area has a maximum capacity and at the moment we are actually teetering on a real disaster occurring if the rain continues.  The water table is at maximum because of continual steady rain now for a good while.  We wait to see how much the rain falls. 

Tears from  heaven.... to take care of you.. for the ones who have loved and lost.

MODERATE FLOOD WARNING FOR THE BELLINGER RIVER

Issued at 10:36 am EDT on Thursday 26 January 2012

Flood Warning Number: 22
Up to 550 mm has fallen over the Bellinger catchment in the last 4 days. However the rainfall intensity has increased during the last 3 hours with up to 80 mm falling during this period. This has resulted in renewed rises in the Bellinger River.
There is currently moderate flooding at Thora. Bellingen is expected to reach moderate flood level (6.7 metres) around 12 pm.
Further rainfall is predicted for the next 12-24 hours, which could produce further river rises. The situation is being closely monitored and revised predictions issued if necessary.

Latest River Heights:

Location	Height of River	Date/Time of Observation
Bellinger R at Thora	4.92m rising	10:17 AM THU 26/01/12
Never Never Ck at Gleniffer	2.91m rising	10:02 AM THU 26/01/12
Bellinger R at Bellingen Br	5.87m rising	10:19 AM THU 26/01/12
Kalang R at Kooroowi (Scotchman)	4.16m rising	10:19 AM THU 26/01/12
Kalang R at Newry Island	1.19m rising	10:19 AM THU 26/01/12

For latest rainfall and river level information see www.bom.gov.au/nsw/flood/


Image by Mezza - Sun hiding in a puddle.

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