Thursday, May 24, 2012

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat. Mother Teresa






Today I spoke to the Forde Foundation in Queensland.  This foundation is part of the Department of Communities.  A part of the department set aside for the forgotten Australian's who were brought up in care in Queensland's notorious children's homes.  Awful places where children were treated more like animals and not children.  I spent many years in care.  I spent my entire teen years in care.  This was hell.  I hated it so much and I was so lonely and this is where I developed a lot of the present fears I am still saddled with today.


It took a little while to find my way around through the bureaucracy of it all and it wasn't easy not being able to call out of this area on my home telephone.  With the help of Campbell from Andrew Fraser's office in Coffs Harbour.

He did some checking up and I rang the number I was given.  A very cheery lass called Nicky answered and she was helpful but she had to tell me that the time for compensation was over.  However the foundation has many other ways in which it can help me out.  There are grants for study and for health and various other needs.  They have added my name to the mailing list and I won't be forgotten in the future.

I felt very sad this afternoon.  I never felt so resentful of a bunch of people than I did of my brothers and sisters this afternoon.  They took it upon themselves to leave me out and to not tell me anything about this process while they all took advantage of this accept for one of my brother's.  My brother Zane wanted no part of this.  He isn't off the hook completely as he or his partner Jacqui could have contacted me and told me about this so as to at least give me the opportunity for myself.  It was obvious that the government had unleashed this clumsy band aid  upon the unsuspecting target group, so unsuspecting that someone like me would miss an opportunity to address the Queensland parliament or to have my story heard and to have received compensation for the pain and suffering that has been on going in my life to date .
The kind of pain and suffering that is not visible to most other than the blank stares I may have at times or the inability to know what to do in certain situations, most don't know because they don't see me.  They don't know about the nightmares or the fears or the feelings of running or hiding. 

I hope when the Forde Foundation send this initial package that there are some contacts where I can access some help in being able to communicate with my children again in a safe place.  My two older children just think I am mad and don't understand the capacity of  which I was physically and emotionally abused.

The ladies on the phone were very understandable about my situation.  They were  more helpful when I told them that I had my Certificate IV Community Services Welfare.  I said that I felt I was qualified in this area, they both understood when I said that now I am well over qualified to work in this field and they agreed.  Not in a helping capacity, but I would be very helpful in a clerical role in the same field.

I want to  have an opportunity of having a real go at life.  Being with John for so many years was hard as he ate up our opportunity years with useless gambling.  His drinking was an issue but I didn't eat the money the way gambling did.  After all there is only so much he could drink before he was useless to the world.  I resent this happening and I have to some how heal these resentments.

The best way to heal resentments is to overcome them with an even bigger success.  That would be novel.

http://www.searchquotes.com/quotes/author/Mother_Teresa/
Image by Mezza -  Plants on the bank at dawn in Urunga
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Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Let the birthday season begin...

On the hill today it was a day for celebrations.  Brice turned 46.  We made this special cake with his name on it and  he said he had never had a cake with his name on it before.
A couple of days ago it was Anaan's 17th Birthday and now Bricee's and then mine and Montana's birthday.  So you see it is a season of birthdays not to mention the many Gemini's as friends we all have.


I covered this Cup of Coffee cake with Dark Chocolate Ganache.  It was delicious but when I went to move it I broke a piece off the side.  I had to stick that piece back on the side.  It didn't matter because it still tasted brilliant.

I enjoyed making this cake for Brice.  It was a present for him from me and I made it myself.  I haven't done many cakes lately and it shows.  I was as rusty as hell.  I wish I had grand kids so that I could make cakes for them, that would be fun!

Image by Mezza - Brice and his cake 23rd May 2012
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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Off to the North is Bundadgen

Bundagen might be seen as a microcosm of the macrocosm, with all the dramas of the wider world played out on our small stage.


For years and years I have wanted to visit here and when I was younger I wanted to live here but I never knew how you did this.  I should just have driven out there I suppose.  I would have met people no doubt.  Strange how things turn out.  But anyway here we are today at Bundagen Community for lunch with Liz and Atalanta.

The food was delicious and well prepared and everything ran like absolute clock work.  I was very impressed as there was a store that sold amazing breads and lots of organic produce right there so local.  I never knew about this. I feel so blessed that Atalanta asked me although I felt out of place as I felt that Liz didn't need my company. 



The beautiful sun stained glass high window.
She is going through issues and I am still buzzing on Uluru and the most amazing spiritual experiences that I had while I was there.  I so want to tell everyone how amazing it was but I guess they only think of the rock and not what else goes on out there and the beautiful people that are living at the rock.  The stories of these woman are so strong and powerful and healing.  The absolute healing nature of sitting with such resolution to nature and feeling safe was a powerful existence I don't feel around here but out there I did.

Images by Mezza - Bundagen Community Mid North Coast NSW
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Monday, May 21, 2012

Venus transit from where we are.

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This transit interests me no end.  It occurs on Montana-Star's 16th Birthday.  What a special gift for her this is.  I wonder if she sees it this way.  I smile when I think about it.  I think these are signs for her to remember later on down the track when I am long gone from this earth.

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Sunday, May 20, 2012

Centuries of history razed by the recent Earthquakes in Italy

Tsunami hazard signTsunami hazard sign (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Not only Italy but also other places such as Japan and there are tsunami warnings in place because of this.  In Afghanistan there is a monstrous flood issue as well.  The planet is talking and people are still not listening.  If a baby talks then so does this earth because it is a hologram.  This earth talks quite loud in fact and I wonder why others cannot hear this.

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Saturday, May 19, 2012

"The actions of men are the best interpreters of their thoughts." James Joyce

The house was in for it today and a huge spring clean occurred and everything was turned upside down and this has been the thought since I returned home from my trip.


Brice did a great job taking care of the house while I was gone and he even repaired the mysterious marks that occurred in the side of the bed room wall.  Well done to him. 
We are washing mats and curtains and dusting and moving the furniture around to liven up the chi energy in the tiny place and make us feel alive again.  Its a good thing and then on the agenda is the plants and they are getting a new lease on life and a top up or a re -pot if necessary.

Image by Mezza - The sun dawns from the hill in Urunga

Friday, May 18, 2012

“God had to create disco music so I could be born and be successful.” - Donna Summer

Today another great music sensation passed from this earth.  The great Donna Summer passed away at the age of 63.  We will play a song of hers in our radio show this afternoon.  Probably Love to Love you Baby which was a big hit in the day.


Personally I feel very similar to Donna Summer and the way she says that disco was created for her.  Sometimes the supreme creator moves heaven and earth for us and we are precious no matter what we tend to think at times and each of us vibrates symbiotically off of each other.
Changing a thought pattern here affects where I am thinking and that is a fact.  This is the power we have forgotten to access.

Image by Mezza - Dawn in Urunga and the beautiful skies above.
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Thursday, May 17, 2012

The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness. - Honoré de Balzac

It was wonderful being here in the grounds of this place with Montana, I think she enjoyed herself.  I have enjoyed going over all of the photographs this week.


Having children is a funny experience on the whole.  We never own them and some of us rear our kids so well that they never ever need us ever again.  Well that is the plan for the way I am to think about how the situation is with me and my kids and really its always a tough call but on we must press and we must never let this situation drag us down to a level that is so low.

Image by Mezza -  Montana at St James Church in Morpeth
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Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Last week I went  on a plane  with Uncle Tom Kelly and Suzie Kelly on a majestic trip to the Rock we all now call ULURU!  All places are places of absolute beauty this is something that is very evident now.  I loved the Anangu people of the Central Desert.


These horses represent so much.  They represent the fact that Brice is a horse in the Chinese Astro charts and he is staying behind to look after the animals.  The image of Nunguu Miirlarl in the background looming over it all symbolising my trip with Uncle Tom Kelly and Suzie Kelly. 

These horses live on Yellow Rock Road which the Kelly farm forms part of. When Uncle Tom was little he lived on the island near the Finger on what we call Yellow Rock Road!  This rock known as the finger  is a yellow colour.  Uncle Tom's family  lived in this area before coming in closer to the township that was now called Urunga. It was called Gilayjal Miirlarl by the aboriginal man and the Yurruun.ga was the North Beach area but white man seemed to like the Urunga word better for here!  I think things like this are important to understand that the white settlers changed the ancient names of places and those names mean really important things in a spiritual sense.



Images by Mezza - Horses on Yellow Rock Road
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Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Just because you don’t drink alcohol does not mean that you are free from addiction.

The Complimentary bottle of wine left in our room for us at ULURU
You could have all of the traits of an addict — the denial, the discomfort with intimacy, the need for unreasonable power and control, the inability to let go, the inner torment, the insecurity masked by grandiosity and so on — without being an alcoholic.
Friel, John; Friel, Linda D. Adult Children: The Secrets of Dysfunctional Families
When we got to Uluru there was a bottle of champagne in the room waiting for us. I would have loved to have drank this but because Suzie didnt want to help me then I never got to drink this.  I am going to get a cheap bottle to rekindle this pleasure though.
Image by Mezza - Killawarra sparkling wine
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Sunday, May 13, 2012

One week later

Last Saturday night I was standing in Kata Juta National Park in the Northern Territory. This week I am standing once again in my favorite old East Maitland and I am Groovin the Moo. Doing it hard .. lol No I am feeling very blessed that I loved everyone who was playing and I knew them all and all the music and seeing 360 was pretty funny and the Hilltop Hoods were excellent but really City and Colour were the best and Gettaway Plan were the best to photograph.  Montana and I had a hectic time with all the lines but we put our bag in the cloak room which was a great idea really.

7638 The Getaway Plan
It got really cold around 7.30pm and everyone was lining up for bags after what had been a top day in the great Australian sunshine.  Listening to the best bands around and I even enjoyed Kimbra. I don't much like her but she was brave as it was very cold in her skimpy outfit with cape.
Rosie was a sweet heart and picked us up in the cold after the concert.  We rang her and she was there to pick us up on the corner near the service station.  We went home for  coffee.

Image by Mezza - Groovin the Moo Maitland 2012 /Gettaway Plan
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Saturday, May 12, 2012

Friday, May 11, 2012

Pink,  purples and all kinds of greens, reds and browns and just beauty every where.  I have cried because it is so awesome, how could you not when you have done what we have been doing here helping the Aunty and experiencing it first hand.


I am just so amazed by the colours all around me here.  The absolute beauty is spectacular. I collected the sage seeds to grow the sage in the sand at home and hopefully I can make my own smudge sticks eventually.  I would like to think that I could anyway and that is the plan.  I have a quandong seed that Aunty gave me as well.


All of these grasses and bushes have a purpose and that is the great part about it.  You can see just how these people existed in peace and ceremony for so many thousands of  years.

Image by Mezza- The Olgas from the Hill and the Grasses around Uluru
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Thursday, May 10, 2012

The Red was everywhere and it was good.

My God I love this place.  My hair dries quickly here as well.  But really it is just beautiful to be here and to smell the place.  It smells good and healthy and rich.  Like as if you made mud and wiped yourself you would be enlivened fully.

This is Nana.. and she dances

I drove around in the car with Nana and Aunty Alison and I got to know her a little closer.  She told me about trying to buy marbles for her grandsons and she said it was hard.  I would really love to be able to send marbles to the mission for the kids and let them have them easily like there neighbouring kids down the road at Yulara 20 klms away.

I suggested to Nana that if her grandson would not go to school then perhaps she could nicely bribe him to go with a marble each day he went instead of just giving him the entire bag at once.  My theory in this is that hopefully in the meantime while being promoted to go he will be successfully engaged into some sort of regular learning model.

Image by Mezza -  Nana Dancing at the Maracoola Arts Centre at Yulara NT
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Wednesday, May 9, 2012

An authentic travel and cultural experience

Ayers Rock Resort provides a variety of accommodation options for every possible taste and budget - from the premium Sails in the Desert Hotel, and Australian Tourism Award-winning Desert Gardens Hotel, to the self-contained Emu Walk Apartments, the authentic Outback Pioneer Hotel and Lodge, and the Ayers Rock Campground, offering powered campsites and air conditioned cabins.

Voyages Logo
 This was really good to find out everything about Voyages and Longitude 131°.  The budget accommodation would have suited me better but I stayed with Uncle Tom in the Emu Gardens Resort.  For all information regarding work or holidays at the rock go to this website for Voyages and check it out.
Resort and Tour Booking Office
 I would most certainly go back again tomorrow as the working conditions are superb for a start. There is so much opportunity for someone who just wanted to work.  I want to go back and stay with Aunty Alison and the opportunity and the invitation is there to do this.  I would love to go and help her and be her hands and feet for her for a good while longer than a couple of days.  I will write to her and phone her when I can.  I certainly loved the old sisters and I want to know how they are getting along in respite.

A Yarn with a friend about why the name change and calling it Uluru and not Ayers Rock etc.
My Friend speaking :
 Mary I'm not picking on anyone and as you know Max is part Koori and our best man was true Koori. Now, how come land can be called after the Koori people as they were known as nomads. Even I learnt that as school. We can't understand why that is all, maybe you or someone can answer this for me. No racism meant. Geeze it hard to talk of facebook, if you have a different opinion your the worst.
My answer:
The first part is easy... this was its original name before white man came...And there is no English explanation of this word in fact!  Which I find very interesting on another level as I think that its a secret and a well kept one with in a honourable people.  These Anangu People still do full ceremony there and there are few places as special as this one in the world to preserve the most original an antiquated culture in the entire world / I believe a culture straight from the stars themselves.. These beautiful people live such a weird life as they are thrust into the 21st century with us all. It was an experience in itself to be there and to feel this and to see it and smell it. It is a conquering nature that fights for a silliness about it being not called Uluru / the black-fella out there refers to it as Ayers rock resort that's all so it has its place / The resort and the town of Yulara is white fellah and so then there is Ayers rock resort.. does that answer my point of view on this... What you want to call it though is up to you.. Its like walking on the rock... Some people find that I am strange because I didn't walk or desire to walk on the rock / primarily it is respect for the people who ask all visitors not to walk on this most sacred place... We cannot wander all over the Opera house at will for free up the sails just coz we wanna / there are going to be laws in place soon as ppl must do it on their own accord and risk and there is no help for anyone so really it is very steep and quite silly and many have died doing this and Japan had a Tsunami after the bloke scattered the Japanese girls ashes off the rock / that probably invoked real bad energy and the earth returned with what she did! just saying!
My Friend speaking again:
yes sweet I can understand outback but I'm talking for the likes of places on the coast the same here saying it is so and so land. Don't ask me to spell any of it. I know Ayres Rock is sacred. I'm meaning other place my dad worked with them back in the old days and always said they move on. Hence the word walk about.
My answer once again and explanation of my point of view
Well they take a walk to do ceremony and its bad magick to not accept and go when asked.. its a way the white-fellah cant understand and in that they are honouring the earth and each other.. they dealt hard with law breakers and so that is why and so there is a lot to be said that the white fellah cant have it both ways! Now it seen as REAL BAD what they did in the past trying to kill out an entire culture that is Genocide.. Now what culture is left needs to be brought out into everyday language and recognised as such to preserve the truth and integrity of the land / the land being the most important part. There are many sacred dreaming places that have been decimated in the past but we should pull that behaviour up straight away. The indigenous people have some of the most beautiful places as sacred places and its not hard to tell why as those places are alive with spirit and that goes all the way to the coast as the story goes along the language groups and the dreaming lines etc.. there are very sacred places here in our back yard that are in fact connected to the Dreaming of the Anangu people as the Byamie moved across the land forming everything as he went.. turning up with the three of sisters being in the rock at the blue mountains etc... these are the sisters of the seven sisters which is integral in the dreaming stories on all of language groups.. So its not about out there and over here.. out there and over here is connected in a big way so it cannot be separated really!

Images by Mezza -
1. Voyages Ayers Rock resort owned by the ILC 2. Booking Offices
3. Old deadly Sisters who were going into respite.  I loved them.
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Tuesday, May 8, 2012

The Look out point close to the resort!

Straight up the hill from where we are staying is this magnificent little gem of a place.  Its just a short walk up the hill and there are various walking tracks that criscross this to the other resorts on the other side of the ring road and that makes walking to these quicker if you are game in the night time. Dingoes get about then so it is wise to be careful.

ULURU and Kata Juta National Park
I walked up through here many times already and I am sure that I will fully experience this little piece of paradise. The entire place is packed with plants that are the renowned bush tucker that Aunty Alison collects for her exhibitions to the people in the resort. I took the pics of the full moon up here as well.

Image by Mezza - The Viewing point hill

Monday, May 7, 2012

And it is Sunday and today is the day

Touching down in Uluru..

What a flight, what an amazing country we live in and what I have just seen.  I am gobsmacked by the sheer beauty of the surrounding country side and then seeing Uluru flying in and the the Olga's in the distance.  I saw the mission of Mutujulu on the other side of the rock and the Resort complex and Yulara were clearly visible from the air in the sparce and very very red landscape surrounding this magnificent place called ULURU and the Kata Juta National Park.  

Image by another Mezza.. Me and Uncle Tom and Suzie getting off the plane at Uluru NT.
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Sunday, May 6, 2012

Namaste


In a well-known episode it so transpired that the great lover god Krishna made away with the clothes of unmarried maidens, fourteen to seventeen years of age, bathing in the river Yamuna.

Namaste
 Their fervent entreaties to him proved of no avail. It was only after they performed before him the eternal gesture of namaste was he satisfied, and agreed to hand back their garments so that they could recover their modesty.
The gesture (or mudra) of namaste is a simple act made by bringing together both palms of the hands before the heart, and lightly bowing the head. In the simplest of terms it is accepted as a humble greeting straight from the heart and reciprocated accordingly.
Namaste is a composite of the two Sanskrit words, nama, and te. Te means you, and nama has the following connotations:
  • To bend
  • To bow
  • To sink
  • To incline
  • To stoop
All these suggestions point to a sense of submitting oneself to another, with complete humility. Significantly the word 'nama' has parallels in other ancient languages also. It is cognate with the Greek nemo, nemos and nosmos; to the Latin nemus, the Old Saxon niman, and the German neman and nehman. All these expressions have the general sense of obeisance, homage and veneration. Also important here is to note that the root 'nama' is a neuter one, the significance of which will be elaborated upon later.
The word nama is split into two, na and ma. Na signifies negation and ma represents mine. The meaning would then be 'not mine'. The import being that the individual soul belongs entirely to the Supreme soul, which is identified as residing in the individual towards whom the namaste is directed. Indeed there is nothing that the soul can claim as its own. Namaste is thus the necessary rejection of 'I' and the associated phenomena of egotism. It is said that 'ma' in nama means death (spiritual), and when this is negated (na-ma), it signifies immortality.
The whole action of namaste unfolds itself at three levels: mental, physical, and verbal.
It starts with a mental submission. This submission is in the spirit of total surrender of the self. This is parallel to the devotion one expresses before a chosen deity, also known as bhakti. The devotee who thus venerates with complete self-surrender is believed to partake the merits or qualities of the person or deity before whom he performs this submission. There is a prescription in the ancient texts known as Agamas that the worshipper of a deity must first become divine himself, for otherwise worship as a transaction would become invalid. A transaction can only be between equals, between individuals who share some details in common. Hence by performing namaste before an individual we recognize the divine spark in him. Further by facilitating our partaking of these divine qualities, namaste makes us aware of these very characteristics residing within our own selves. Simply put, namaste intimates the following:

'The God in me greets the God in you
The Spirit in me meets the same Spirit in you'
In other words, it recognizes the equality of all, and pays honor to the sacredness of all.
Garuda
Translated into a bodily act, namaste is deeply rich in symbolism. Firstly the proper performance of namaste requires that we blend the five fingers of the left hand exactly with the fingers of the right hand. The significance behind this simple act in fact governs the entire gamut of our active life.
 The five fingers of the left hand represent the five senses of karma, and those of the right hand the five organs of knowledge. Hence it signifies that our karma or action must be in harmony, and governed by rightful knowledge, prompting us to think and act correctly.
By combining the five fingers of each hand, a total of ten is achieved.  The number ten is a symbol of perfection, and the mystical number of completion and unity. It is true for all ancient traditions. Ten is the number of the Commandments revealed to Moses by God. In the Pythagorean system, ten was a symbol of the whole of creation. Ancient Chinese  thought of ten as the perfectly balanced number.
Another significant identification of namaste is with the institution of marriage, which represents a new beginning, and the conjoining of the male and female elements in nature.
Marriage is a semi-divine state of wholeness - a union between the opposite principles of male and female necessary to procreate and protect new life. The idea of human divine association was often expressed in terms of marriage, as in the description of nuns as "brides of Christ". Thus in the exhaustive marriage rituals of India, after the elaborate ceremonies have been completed, the new husband and wife team perform namaste to each other. Wedding customs, full of symbolic meanings, attempt to ensure that marriages are binding, hence fruitful and happy.  Namaste is one such binding symbolic ritual. The reconciliation, interaction and union of opposites is amply reflected in this spiritual gesture. It is hoped that the husband and wife team too would remain united, as are the hands joined in namaste. By physically bringing together the two hands, namaste is metaphorically reconciling the duality inherent in nature and of which the marriage of two humans is an earthly manifestation, a harmonious resolution of conflicting tensions. Thus namaste, which symbolizes the secret of this unity, holds the key to maintaining the equilibrium of life and entering the area where health, harmony, peace and happiness are available in plenty.
ArdhanareshwaraIn this context, namaste is equated with the image of Ardhanarishvara, the hermaphrodite form symbolizing the marriage of Shiva and Parvati, or the coming together of the parents of the universe, for the purpose of creation. In this form Shiva has his beloved spouse engrafted in his body. It is conjectured that by wresting from her husband one half of his body as her own, and herself commingling in his physical frame, Parvati has obtained an ideal, archetypal union with her husband. Indeed which couple could be more devoted than the one which finds completion only by merging into each other? By merging her creative aspect with him, Parvati balances Shiva's destructive urge. Similarly when Ardhanarishvara dances, the dance step is itself believed to be a combination of two principal and antagonistic styles of dance. 'Tandava', the fierce, violent dance, fired by an explosive, sweeping energy, is a delirious outburst, precipitating havoc. On the other hand is 'lasya', the gentle, lyrical dance, full of sweetness, and representing the emotions of tenderness and love. It is in the lasya of the goddess that death is annihilated and turned into transformation and rejuvenation, rebirth and creation. The image of Ardhanarishvara is thus the perfect master of the two contrary elements in the manifested universe. Such an ideal, perfect marriage is the message of namaste. Thus is 'nama', the root of namaste, of neuter gender, as is Ardhanarishvara, the androgyne.
Shiva Ling

Namaste recognizes the duality that has ever existed in this world and suggests an effort on our part to bring these two forces together, ultimately leading to a higher unity and non-dual state of Oneness. Some of these dual elements which the gesture of namaste marries together and unifies as one are:
  • God and Goddess
  • Priest and Priestess
  • King and Queen
  • Man and Woman
  • Heaven and Earth
  • Sun and Moon
  • Solar bull and Lunar cow
  • Sulfur and Quicksilver (Alchemy)
  • Theory and Practice
  • Wisdom and Method
  • Pleasure and Pain
  • Astral body (consciousness) and Etheric body (sensation)
  • Mind and body
  • Pneuma (spirit) and Psyche (mind)
  • Hun (spiritual soul) and p'o (material soul) (Chinese)
  • Conscious and Unconscious
  • Animus (unconscious male element in woman) and Anima (unconscious female element in man) (Jung)
  • Objectivity and Subjectivity
  • Extraversion and Introversion
  • Intellect and Instinct
  • Reason and Emotion
  • Thought and Feeling
  • Inference and Intuition
  • Argument and Experience
  • Talent and Genius
  • Silence and Cacophony
  • Word and Meaning
  • Schizophrenia and Epilepsy
  • Depression and Mania
  • Sexuality and Anxiety
  • Katabolism (breaking up) and Anabolism (building up)
  • Ontogeny (individual evolution) and Phylogeny (race evolution)
  • Right side of body (warm) and Left side (cool)
  • Front side of body (positive) and Rear side of body (negative)
  • Brain and Heart
  • Sahasara Chakra and Kundalini
  • Insulin and Adrenalin
  • Pingala (yellow solar channel in body) and Ida (white lunar channel)
  • Hot breath and Cold breath (Yoga)
  • Exhalation and Inhalation (Yoga)
  • Linga and Yoni
There is indeed no sphere of our existence untouched by the symbolic significance of namaste.
Finally, the gesture of namaste is unique also in the sense that its physical performance is accompanied by a verbal utterance of the word "namaste." This practice is equivalent to the chanting of a mantra. The sonority of the sacred sound 'namaste' is believed to have a quasi-magical value, corresponding to a creative energy change. This transformation is that of aligning oneself in harmony with the vibration of the cosmos itself.
HanumanAt its most general namaste is a social transaction. It is usual for individuals to greet when they meet each other. It is not only a sign of recognition but also an expression of happiness at each other's sight. This initial conviviality sets the positive tone for the further development of a harmonious relationship.  Namaste as a greeting thus is a mosaic of movements and words constituting an intimation of affirmative thoughts and sentiments. In human society it is an approach mechanism, brimming with social, emotional and spiritual significance. In fact it is said that in namaste the hands are put together like a knife so that people may cut through all differences that may exist, and immediately get to the shared ground that is common to all peoples of all cultures.
In this context, a comparison with the widely prevalent 'handshake' is inevitable. Though shaking hands is an extremely intimate gesture, namaste scores over it in some ways. Primarily is the one that namaste is a great equalizer. You do namaste with God (and not shake hands!). A king or president cannot shake hands with the large multitude they are addressing. But namaste serves the purpose. It is the same gesture one would have exchanged with a king when with him alone. So no incongruity arises. In the absence of namaste, those facing a large audience will have to make do with a wave of the hands, a much less congenial greeting, and indeed which does not state the essential equality of all people, but highlights the difference even more. But on a parallel level it has been conjectured that both the namaste and the handshake developed out of a desire on the part of both the parties to show themselves to be unarmed and devoid of malicious intention. The outstretched hand, and the palms joined together, both establish the proponents as disarmed and show that they come in peace.

Eleven Headed Thousand Armed AvalokiteshwaraConclusion

As much as yoga is an exercise to bring all levels of our existence, including the physical and intellectual, in complete harmony with the rhythms of nature, the gesture of namaste is an yoga in itself. Thus it is not surprising that any yogic activity begins with the performance of this deeply spiritual gesture. The Buddhists went further and gave it the status of a mudra, that is, a gesture displayed by deities, where it was known as the Anjali mudra. The word Anjali itself is derived from the root Anj, meaning "to adorn, honor, celebrate or anoint."
According to Indologist Renov "Meditation depends upon the relationship between the hands (mudras), the mouth (mantras) and the mind (yoga)". The performance of namaste is comprised of all these three activities. Thus namaste is in essence equivalent to meditation, which is the language of our spirit in conversation with god, and the perfect vehicle for bathing us in the rivers of divine pleasure.
Namaste website

Image by Mezza - Red Dirt Circle at ULURU

Saturday, May 5, 2012

The butterfly is a flying flower... ~Ponce Denis Écouchard Lebrun

Hello on Day one away from home

Today is the day we depart on our journey to the Rock!  My mind has been buzzing on this day coming around  for over three months now!  It is the 5th of May and this is it.    The entire unfolding of the trip has been perfectly timed for the three of us leaving our tiny Urunga to go to the place that hums and the place where the electromagnetic frequencies are tuned to the same frequencies my body channel searches for. 

Some of you will read this and you will immediately know what I mean.  Others may read this a scratch their heads and toss it out with the bath water so to speak.  These ones are not from the same place.  It is as if they are from a different planet.

Yes the airport is a huge place but I have a better understanding of how it all runs now these days.  It was obviously too hard to take to much notice while chasing children and being pregnant.  This time it was a very pleasant experience.  We caught a taxi to the motel.  The Airport International Inn.

Image by Mezza - Sydney Airport

Friday, May 4, 2012

The Power of the World always works in circles


Have you noticed that everything an Indian does is in a circle, and that is because the Power of the World always works in circles, and everything tries to be round..... The Sky is round, and I have heard that the earth is round like a ball, and so are all the stars. The wind, in its greatest power, whirls. Birds make their nest in circles, for theirs is the same religion as   ours... Even the seasons form a great circle in their changing, and always come back again to where they were. The life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood, and so it is in everything where power moves.

This cycle of living is something I know very well as I was forced by circumstance to follow my very own cycle so closely for a number of years and resorting to all sorts of magical and mystical things to try and right my energy balance with the world.  Funny all it took was to get madly pissed.  Something I had  purposefully stayed away from to help my chances of falling pregnant.  When I finished up with the IVF Program I went out and finally I got wasted and then I got pregnant.  Phenomenal. I actually went round in a complete circle and experienced the full gamut of it all from start to finish and finally I fell naturally and I delivered naturally as well.

Image by Mezza- A Majestic Dawn in Urunga

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Thursday, May 3, 2012

ONE More Sleep to go!

I remember when it was fifty sleeps,  I think I have hardly slept since then.  Every day I think about going to this place where I am going and everyday I think wow I always wanted to see this so bad.  Finally I am going to Uluru. Finally the place where all the dreaming tracks lead to.  The very special special place that was called Eyres Rock forever in my childhood.  Some say its hard to call something another name. I think that is pussy,  I know!  I had another name and I had to get used to this!  I am so glad I changed my name to my name my mother gave me!


I look at myself and think I hit that myth fair in the face changing my name from Cindy to Mary-Ellen .. which is my correct name.  I changed it back because I woke up in a cold sweat saying help me, I am not vibrating to my correct number and I must change this now.  I was 25 years old when this happened.  So I have been called Cindy for 25 years and Mary-Ellen for 28 years.. 

I am Mary-Ellen Peters, youngest daughter of William Henry Peters and Ellen Katherine Peters (nee Baguley) of Warwick.  Well that is how the birth notice might have read if there wasn't so much going on at the time.  For instance my father being in hospital and being told that he will never ever walk again.  I guess he didn't handle the challenge very well did he?  They broke up and he was a hard hard man!  Everyone who I have ever known said that he was a hard man.

Personally, I don't know.   I really never got to know him at all.  I never lived with him.  I can't  remember ever kissing him or being kissed by him which in itself is sad.  I remember kissing my mummy, but only in later life and as a child I got my mummy's love for four months before she had to go.  That was a special four months.  I must have loved her, I would not sleep and they said horrible things about this.  My poor mummy, if only I had known the truth!  I am so so sad about this and such a lifetime of waste.


Abandoned by both my parents is a hard and bitter pill to swallow no matter which way you look at it or who you are reading this.  I know it was never meant to be like this.  I know my mother didn't want to do this.  I know that she thought it would be ok in the end.  I know she loved me though.  I know because she gave me her mothers name and also her own name.  I feel special!  

I should have called  Montana  this name instead ...Ellen Mary-Ellen.  If I was to follow this tradition it would be that, and that is funny.  So perhaps she will call one of her daughter's Mary and one Ellen in their middle names, or their first.  That would be the pinnacle wouldn't it?  To have someone named after you.  No one would name anything after me and so this is just a fanciful dream. 
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Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Cosmic Party 2012

On the Hill we are feeling star struck.  Our bodies are our space suits if you like to think of it in this way.  Personally,  I would love an updated space suit  because this one has a few cracks and tears.   This happened when I forgot who I was and I acted as If I were a rock.  Hard and metamorphic and unforgiving.  I am outta the rock phase now and into the skip of the hip hop and loving life again with its emotions


If you have an understanding of what I am conveying here you will know that as you awaken and you will realize  that your true family isn't those of your own race, religion, culture, county, or even your biological family.  Your true family is your cosmic family.   Those who have come as you have come, on assignment to assist in ways large and small in the current transition occurring here on this planet.  Souls who have been close to us here are now leaving at a rapid rate. It has begun.

While I have been here inhabiting planet Earth I wanted to experience self sufficiency since the very beginning.  I have yet to do this fully.   I guess I didn't chose well to put myself through that test.  I know that I love camping so I may pass but it will be an only just pass.  I have one thing going for me and that is my heart.  It wells with the emotions of  love and creativity and the wonder of the miracle of life itself.

I am a true Star Seed.  I came here to experience life on a level that at times  even I can only wonder why.  I came with the full ferocity of a fire exploding into a brilliant flame.  The flame got very low at various times and was almost extinguished on occasions. 

I put myself here to experience this.  I had then to experience the fear that came with protecting my space suit while I was here.  Everyone is obsessed pretty well in certain parts of the world.  I was in one of those areas, I chose to not deface my suit by shaving it.  My suit hated being shaved.  I never pulled at it and yanked hairs out in my earlier time, waiting until a certain maturity was reached before participating in that one.

My space suit is my body and my skin.  It protects me from the environmental changes going on around me and at times I have meltdowns and freeze ups and I think this is similar to our awesome sun and the CME's it emits.  I feel like the sun appears and all I can say to describe this is; Stuff is coming out of me.  and all of  the plasma in my body is swaying and moving and emotionally I am directly affected.


I have blue eyes and blonde hair.  My blonde hair is a dead give away to my true star lineage.  A Pleiadian light worker,   One of the blondes and subject to the phenomena of the "The Blondening" as apposed to the "Quickening" .  I am being slightly in jest here and the reason why they joke about us is because we are suckers for love.  We are gullible and  tend to think everyone here on this plane just vibrates on love but they don't!  You know that you have seen blonde aboriginals and they say the original aboriginal person did have blonde hair and blue eyes.  We are from the same place

It has been said of my hair that it feels out of this world.  I sound rather self obsessed but I have to say that it does feel pretty special.  I have been clinging to a few hairs since my birth.  Never ever going to sleep with out a few hairs clasped expertly in my fingers and the feeling is unimaginable and divine.  I find this hard to explain as it is more than just playing with my hair.  I set my self a challenge once and that was to see how I felt with out this hair and so I shaved it all off bald.  I was fine but my children suffered badly and were ever so embarrassed and to this day I still cannot work out why.

I am now an usher.  When you go to the movies and you are late, the usher shows you the way in with a torch and seats you in a place and does this in a manner as to not upset the other participators who are watching the movie.  Here on Earth I am an usher in training. I have a massive torch and it is my heart.    I still experience great turmoil about not being listened to and my throat Chakra  which is the colour blue  is a little blocked.  I want to get it spinning. I want to rectify the energies here
Psycho-spiritually speaking.   Blue relates to self expression.   For a long time this has been an issue.


Speech, communication, and the ability to communicate our needs and requirements,  is our Spirit of truth and purpose.  When this chakra is balanced the positive aspects of this colour will prevail. However, an imbalance here can produce the negative aspects of this colour and a display of disloyalty, unfaithfulness, self righteousness and a coldness of heart will surface.  When back in balance I will be extremely loyal and very trustworthy, tactful and calm.  This is the perfect state for this Chakra.  This is what we try to achieve here on earth.

I see all of these wheels as cogs, always have.  My personal cognizants and I  must see the cogs turning beautifully and smoothly. With not much knowledge of the chakra system  I still managed to see  these wheels inside of myself and at the time I was too concerned with other projects to slow down enough to care.   Now it is time for all of this to come to a crossroads and its  time to usher in the changes.    I do understand their purposes now  as I have seen them in operation.  They connect me to the universe and all of the forces that ensue.  This is the number one reason for the abilities I have that some term as psychic.  We brought these abilities with us from other places and where we came from this is the way communication occurs and not with the basic levels of communication  used here.
CME's = Coronal Mass Ejections  release huge quantities of matter and electromagnetic radiation into space above the sun's surface, either near the corona (sometimes called a solar prominence) or farther into the planet system or beyond (interplanetary CME). The ejected material is a plasma consisting primarily of electrons and protons, but may contain small quantities of heavier elements such as helium, oxygen, and even iron. It is associated with enormous changes and disturbances in the coronal magnetic field.
(from Wikipedia)
Image of Mezza -  A large log at the Christmas Waterholes at Gleniffer NSW Australia

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

"Earth and space are about to come into contact in a way that's new to human history."

According to Richard Fisher, head of NASA’s Heliophysics Division.


 I am moving to the The New England area when I get back from Uluru.  I am looking forward to this and to growing our own food again.  I will probably suffer with the cold but that is better than drowning to death.

I am in preparation mode now and I must continue to be in such a state of flux because we are now officially on the move.  The planetary shift is a reality and the earth has the lowest magnetic levels in 2000 years.  The planets are lining up and this is going to make the water rise and fast and it will become a time without electricity. 

We will become like aboriginals again.  The sun and the Moon will be new.  This is an exciting but terrifying time no less.  Some won't even make the transition to the new ways.

My children are all grown up  fairly well.  Montana has a boyfriend and she and him may come up there when I am set up perhaps.  That would be good.

I have much to write in a list form.  I must firstly get a shed and perhaps this will be easy in the Glen Innes area.


Image by Mezza - Full Moon in Early April 2012


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